"Despite that 'snobbish facade' , 'strong personality', and callousness, there is gentleness deep inside you."

I am not trying to give others the impression that I am strong. I like to think that I am, because I need to (not that I want to).

"It's good that you are able to recognize what you don't like about yourself and that gives you something to think about. Mas-ok na alam mo kung ano ang dapat hangaan ng ibang tao sayo.
You truly are a diamond among the roughs."

I love to think that I am smart enough to know everything I need and want. Nonetheless, I am just like anybody else, uncertain.

"...if there's something she really wants to do, she puts all her energy into it."

The truth is, responsibility is a burdensome. I always want to escape in order to avoid entrapment and pain but I cannot. So, I am merely dealing with it.

"You never cease to amaze me."

I wonder why they aspire to my amazing-ness. I never want to be on the 'limelight' though I want to be appreciated. I dislike attention because it makes me feel conscious. Hehe


What is on the surface does not necessarily reflect the totality of a person. Sharing of little hurts does not explain the depth of pain. Explaining details does not mean pouring down my heart. I am REAL but not as transparent as everybody knows and thinks. I maybe bold, straightforward and forthright but I have many locked up feelings. I think they are not meant to be shared unless it is a matter of life and death. Nevertheless, a part of me always want to speak of what is really inside my heart. But I cannot. Not because I can't trust a person but I am afraid of not being in control. I am just like anybody else, trying to figure out this life. Learning and living this life the way I understand it.

Greenday, Matchbox Twenty

Clueless, Troy, What Dreams May Come, the Tempest, Mean Girls, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Windstruck, Sassy Girl, Freaky Friday, What a Girl Wants, Chasing Liberty, Serendipity

Everwood, Alias, Roswell, Gilmore Girls

Message in a Bottle, Tuesdays With Morrie, Once and Always, Best Laid Plans, One Hundred Years of Solitude, The Dream Game, The Alchemist

No problem is solved unless it is faced